Me echo de menos a algo en mi vida. Ahora estoy un poco triste, y no se porque. Depresion? quisas. Tengo salud, tengo amigos, tengo mi familia. Pero, no tengo amor. No se lo que es amor. El dice "te amo" pero yo creo que no es la verdad. Yo se que no es la verdad. En la vida, en realidad, que es la verdad?.... Hoy tengo que llamar a el, y decirle algo importante. Necesito decirle que no podemos vernos mas. El no es bueno para mi vida espiritual. No quiero decirle nada, pero yo tengo que hacerlo. fisicalmente, el me siente bueno. Me gusta cuando el me abraza. El me besa, pero yo no lo beso. por que? es porque no lo amo. Es triste no?

Y los otros....que debo hacer? estoy pensando que el uno no me quiere. solamente como una amiga, pero yo quiero mas. que quiero? yo no se. y el otro, el me ama tambien, pero no se porque.

So, I think it's time for a new skin. I guess something happened with the bandwith (whatever that is) of the image I had on this skin, so its gone. So, my skin isn't the same without it. Its lost its flava.

I went out with Max again last night. Everyone was saying "Liz, don't go, Liz, don't go." Everything was fine. But really, I do need to stop being with him so much. Lets not get into that.

So I borrowed one of Max's CD's, its by Papa Wembi (I think that's the name) and its so good! I'm loving African music.

I just thought of something. My love life is like neopolitan ice cream. LOL this is so funny. There's the chocolate. I don't really like chocolate, but I eat it because its there. As a matter of fact, chocolate ice cream doesn't appeal to me at all, I don't even know who's idea it was to put chocolate in with vanilla and strawberry, but that's another subject. Now strawberry, I really like strawberry ice cream. Its so good! The flavor, so delicious, the color, everything. mmmmm. Then, we have vanilla. Vanilla is so so sweet. Really, I guess there's a little bit of that vanilla sweetness in any flavor. Vanilla is classic. So nice and yummy.

Did that make sense?

"What is it with you and love? It seems like you two are always on parallels..."

Spoken by a friend, and spoken so truly. But, it never used to be that way. Growing up, and in high school I never was in relationships. Now that I'm in college, I have more than I care to deal with at one time. What's happening? Did I ask for this? What was it that provoked this flow of guys into my life? I'm still the same person I've always been! I still do all the same things! My life still basically consists of school, church, and work. Really, I just don't get it. It really baffles me.

I really miss Julius. I wonder how he's been doing. Hm, I guess I could send him an email...duh.

This little piece of poem is inspired by Keith

Sonando Contigo
mi amor,
with the strongest wishes and most earnest hopes i long for u
but to say "te traigo con mis suenos" is not true

Deseo abrazarle y cantarle un cancion so sweet
but todos mis desos wont bring u closer to me

These days have been pretty taxing on the mind lately. So much to think on, decisions to make. What should I do? I ask myself everyday. I always know that situations will play themselves out in time, but I'm not ready to wait for time. I need something now.