Thursday, January 29, 2004

A Few More Pet Peeves
1) People with fully functioning limbs and mental capacity who use the handicap button to open doors. What is wrong with your body that you can't open a door? Are you that lazy to pull/push? Or maybe you think you are above opening doors, so you use handicap button instead. Yes, that must be it.
2)B.O. Yes, that's right, body odor. Okay, I can understand if you are having a bad day in the hygeine department, but there is no reason you should stink everyday. There is no escuse for chronic B.O. Don't you smell yourself? What's wrong with your soap?
3)Adding letters/syllables to words. I can't stand when people say acrosst. The word across doesn't have a T on the end! There's also patterin. I don't see how you can get patterin out of the word pattern.
4)Messy eaters. This one will always make the list. Please people, make use of all utensils necessary. This includes your napkin. If you are over 7 years old, there is no reason for you to have food crumbs all over your clothes and face. NO reason. And while you're at it, close your mouth while you're eating. And don't talk to me until you swallow. Please.
He keeps on.....doing great things for me
He keeps on ....doing great things for me

I really loves this song, and the lyrics are so true. God keeps on doing such great things for me. Now, at church we are on a 6 week consecration in which we are eating one meal a day, to get ready for the youth explosion we're having in March. It just started Monday, and I've been doing pretty good so far, but it's been hard. So yesterday, I was typing up my paper for Sociology class, it was about my Christianity subculture. All of a sudden, the computer froze and it wouldn't unfreeze, and silly me didn't save a bit of the work I'd already done. I must've pushed Ctrl+Alt+Delete a hundred times, but still nothing. I got sooooo mad. I got unreasonably mad. I was gonna have to shut the computer down and start my paper all over again. I talked to my mother about it, she just fussed about me doing my work at the last minute, which only added to my frustration. I was seriously about to cuss the computer out, I didn't care. My eyes began to swell with tears, I was thinking "I'm not even gonna do this paper anyway, I'm tired, I shouldn't have waited so long, I'm not even gonna go to class tomorrow." In the midst of my anger, I began to pray. I knew that my anger and perhaps upcoming actions were unjustifiable. I asked the Lord to take away my frustration, and I began to rebuke the spirits of anger, defeat, and procrastination. I shut the computer down, with tears still in my eyes. It finally booted back up, and when I went into Microsoft word, my paper was there, fully recovered.

Now, the testimony in this is not only that I got my paper back, although that was a huge blessing. The main thing is that I can see how God is working in me, especially through this consecration. There would have been a time when I would've cussed the computer out, probably even damaged it in some way, and left the assignment undone. That's not God-like. In fact, the last thing on my mind would've been praying. All while writing a paper about Christianity.

Matthew 7:8 - Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

Son: The constipation has been going pretty good so far.
Me: *looks strangely* The what???
Son: The consecration.
Me: That is not what you said.....

I think I saw Kalvin yesterday. As as matter of fact, I am 90% sure that it was him. I only saw the guy from his backside, but I could tell it was a light-skinned guy. He was about the same height as Kalvin (I guess) and he had on a hat. Yea, Kalvin looks good in hats. It was like a winter hat thing, and I could see where the guy had a ponytail underneath. I'm was so him.

Monday, January 26, 2004

Does running for the bus every morning count as daily excercise?
I find it quite difficult to leave the house at 7a.m. Monday through Friday to catch the bus to go to class. No matter what time I get up, I just can't seem to leave the house on time. So I run. Actually, it's more like jog, with the bookbag and all, but it's not fun at all.
Thinking about-People. It is so interesting to watch and observe people doing what they do, acting out the unrehearsed script of life. I guess that's why we have such studies as Psychology and Sociology. The question is: what makes people happy? And how can you define happiness? I mean, when someone gives you a piece of candy, does that make you happy? You smile, yes, but how long does that good feeling last? I think that's not happines, that's just being pleased. I don't know, I could go all day with that one.....

So, I've also been thinking lately about writing a letter to myself. Not mailing it or anything, but just to see what it's like. (no, i'm not on drugs) I think it wouldn't be much different than writing to a friend. What's the point? I don't know yet, but I'll let you know when I find out.

Last night I got to talk to Adam, this guy from Sonia and Tura's job who apparently had it pretty bad for Son'. He seems like a cool kid, we had some things in common with school and such. I thought it very interesting that he wants to be a herptologist (I think thats the word). It's not your average answer to the "What do you want to be when you grow up" question. By the way If you don't know what that is, look it up. Anyhow, I hope I can get him to come to church with me and Son'.

Now I'm gonna go home, relax, do some homework, etc. I love being done with classes early! Oh, and it seems my new nickname with some of mis amigos is 'Lucky'. Heh Heh Heh.

Friday, January 23, 2004

What had happened was....
This is how it always happens. I get on the computer, and I tell myself I'm only going to get online for a little while. Well, tonight I got on around 10ish, and now it's 1:00 a.m.! I need to be in bed, I have to be up at 6. This is craziness. In the meantime, I've added a song to my blog "I Can" by Nas. I love this song, its so very positive, its a great message not only for the kids, but for all of us. Plus, the beat is tight.

Tura-I haven't seen you since Anjelica was here! (wait, have I seen you since then??) Anyway, hope school is going well and all. Drop me a line.
Sonia-I haven't seen you since Sunday!! What craziness is that?? Let me tell you, you are too busy for your own good *shakes finger*.
Therese-Bonjour my white chocolate sista! I need to send you your Christmas present...
Martina-Hope you feel better. Po baby....
Anjelica-Um, I was just thinking the other day, you do know you're gonna be in my wedding right?? Just thought I'd let you know.

-Pray that I stay awake in class tomorrow. I have a tendency not to do so.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

So, lately I've been thinking about going vegetarian again. I was one in 7th and 8th grade, but I stopped, not for any particular reason, just because I guess it was getting old. Even now, I don't eat much meat. I "don't partake of the swine" and the only beef I eat is ground beef (think-McDonald's cheeseburger). I dunno, just something I'm throwing around in my mind.

Did you ever reach for the glued-down penny?
Same old joke and it's not funny
Burns are red, bruises blue
Out with the old cheated by the new
-Chumbawumba (i believe)

Why, yes, I actually have. Well, in my case it was a quarter, so does that make it any better? Now, I must say that it is indeed a cruel joke to glue money to the ground and watch as people try to pick it up, not knowing it won't budge.

It was a hot summer day, I was walking along the streets of Normal, visiting different shops, and spending leisure time with my mother. Then I saw it-the small metal circle lying idly on the ground. As I drew closer, I could see that this circle was something special. Not something you normally see lying idly by. Behold-A quarter! Twenty five sweet cents all for me, Oh happy day! Nearing the coin, I imagined all the possibilities of my newfound spending power. Bus fare to some faraway destination (say, the mall), a pack of gum? Perhaps even a Little Debbie snack to please my tounge and stomach. Whichever should I choose??? Standing over the quarter, I knew I'd have plenty of time to decide. I bent over anxiously, and began to pick up the quarter with such anticipation, only to find, it would not move. Not even for me! My heart sank into my stomach, my face warmed with embarrassment and my eyes swelled with tears of dissapointment. No quarter for me.

This, my friends, was last summer.

Monday, January 19, 2004

Thinking Thinking Thinking
I’ve been thinking about many things lately. One issue is quite timely, it being Martin Luther King Jr. Day and all. I’ve been thinking about the civil rights movement and how much strength and courage everyone who fought for our rights had. I was watching a movie the other day, something with Whoppi Goldberg, and it was set in the civil-rights era. It showed how Blacks were boycotting the busses, and doing that meant they had to walk everywhere they went, even several miles to work or the nearest store, or if someone they knew had a car, they could try to carpool. It’s amazing how the whole black community could pull together for one united effort, even though it was very difficult. They had to worry about loosing their jobs, being terrorized by the KKK, getting sprayed with high pressure fire hoses and mauled by police dogs, all with the justice system doing virtually nothing about it. And now, today, whenever I get on the bus, I can sit in whatever seat I darn well please, and the same goes for any restaurant I visit. If it were not for the efforts of those activists, where would the black community be today? There is so much we take for granted.

Looking at the united effort of those working for civil rights, makes me wonder why can’t Americans as a whole pull together against so much corruption that is going on right now? There are so many companies and businesses that are using unethical standards, mistreating employees and exploiting cheap labor. Something can be done, but not if we don’t pull together and unite against this corruption.

Saturday, January 17, 2004

I don't know what's up with my computer, so I must try to blog quickly, before it kicks me off. Actually, its about to now, so peace and love to all.......

Thursday, January 15, 2004

ooooo pretty

Do you like?
After much deliberation, I have chosen a skin. I was looking for something dark, and I think the purple is a nice touch. A bit sophisticated and quite nice, I think. The only thing is, I feel like there is too much activity going on inbetween posts. You got purple, then grey, then purple then grey.... but still nice. I also don't particularly like how I can't change the "More than Words" part. I still need to add my comments, archive link and such. So, as of now it's a bit unfinished, but I'm sure it will be all gravy once it's complete.

On another note, I am going to get my books today!! I'm so relieved, it's not been easy going for almost a week of classes with no book. *sigh* 'tis all for now.

Tuesday, January 13, 2004

I'm thinking of changing my template to this, or this. Tell me what you think. I think I like the second one better, but the first is so cute. Decisions, Decisions.

Monday, January 12, 2004

Ahh, done with my first day of classes for the new semester. I have some homework, so that means I absolutely need to get my books TODAY. *sigh* On M,W,F I have Math, Biology (anatomy and phisiology), and my Bio lab. So, its a pretty good schedule, my classes are once again back to back (just the way I like'em!) I'm having some problems with my Tuesdays and Thursdays, however. I need to replace my cancelled spanish class with a class that will fulfill my gen eds, but I can't decide what class I wanna take. To complete my gen-eds I need 1 more english class, 2 humanities/fine arts, 2 social/behavioral sciences, and 1 life/physical science. I think I'll choose from:
Sociology of Marriage and Family
Understanding Religion
Non-Western Humanities

Por favor, ayudame Dios!

Friday, January 09, 2004

Love is blind
that's why this girl is on cloud nine
Cool person of the Day:

Seeing as she so faithfully comments on my blogs, I shall dedicate this post to her.

"Does this caged bird sing?" -Talking to Tura one night I asked her about the book "I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings" and if she knew what the title meant. Why does the caged bird sing?? Now, does this caged bird (me) sing? YES! I sing because despite feeling confined, I do have a place to live and a family that cares about me. I'm in college, and my schooling is being paid for with no loans. I have good friends that are caring and supportive, I have a job, in short, I am blessed immensely. I still feel like a caged bird, but I might as well count my blessings and make the best of my 'confinement'.

We're Floetry and we're alright, I'm the flo-icist and I'm alright, I'm the songstress, and I'm alright....
3rd member of Floetry? O yes, I could see myself there. One is the floicist, she writes poetry and can, well, flow. The other is the songstress, and she rocks the mic with beautiful vocals. So if I was the 3rd member, maybe I would be the flosongistress. Hm. Gotta come up with a better title.
Stop Complaining!
I realized today that I must quit complaining about things. I don't think I complain much, but its just one of those things people do everyday, not thinking about it. My complaining is getting me nowhere, for example:
1)Last Saturday it was supposed to snow. We were supposed to have 6 inches by Sunday afternoon. I absolutely can't stand snow, so I was complaining about the snow we were going to get, and then, on that very same Saturday, it began to rain. Then it began to hail. Rain+Hail+Winter=Ice. First it just started with slippery roads on Saturday. Overnight it turned into sidewalks completely covered with ice, and streets mostly covered with it. Almost a week later, I am still slipping and sliding everywhere I walk.
2)Me encanta mucho el espanol. I didn't get to take a Spanish class last semester, so I was going to take one for the spring. The only class offered didn't start until 5 and ended at 7. Although I was glad to be able to take the class finally (seeing as Spanish is my major), I complained because the class was only offered at night. I wasn't too happy about that. So, yesterday the U of H sent me a letter telling me that my class is cancelled. So now I can't take my Spanish class and I get to rearrange my whole schedule.

But I'm not complaining.

Wednesday, January 07, 2004

I was reading blogs and got the inspiration to write a poem. Well, really it just mentioned the waking up crying part, but I knew I could take it and run with it.

She wakes up crying
knowin what her life is like
but she's lying

Lying to her friends
when will the stories come to an end

Lying to herself
with fantasies of prosperity and wealth

But looking around
she will see
the transparent lies have hit the ground
and now too late
cuz noone is around
I priced my books today. They'll cost me over $400, which is crazy. I was thinking they'd only be around $300, but my biology books alone are over $165. Just for one class!!! I have to buy my books and then my scholarship reimburses me, but I don't know how I'm gonna get the money. The Lord will provide.

"I'm happy and why should I be? I'm short, my hairline is receding, and I can't even do girl push-ups"

Her: i moved my bed to my desk and am laying down with the keyboard on my bed so things get awkward with typing
--This is a new low.

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

"Fo' shizzle ... o' no' fo' shizzle? Dat be the quizzle, my south-central British nizzle."-Urban Dictionary

Monday, January 05, 2004

I want to get away...I wanna fly away. Yea, yea yea

That's how I feel, I need to get away. I feel like its due time that so much in my life needs to change. I feel like I am ready to grow, to spread my wings and fly, soar high above the clouds and do great things with my life. There is so much to life, so much to learn and experience, so much to be enlightened of.....I yearn for that.

So what is holding me back? I think living at home during college is not helping at all for starters. Even though I am technically an adult (18 woo hoo) and don't have nearly as many rules as I did when I was younger, there are still many things about living under your parent's roof that prevents growth. There will still be rules no matter what -clean this, be home by this time, get off the phone, etc.- and also living at home has you in a certain comfort zone. It may be uncomfortable to deal with the parents and siblings, but, the comfort is in knowing that your parents are there for you should you need them, that there will be food provided, shelter, all those lovely things. Growth does require stepping out of a comfort zone.

Another thing that is stopping my 'flight' is undecisiveness. I would love to just get up and go. But where am I going to go? And what am I going to do when I get there? See, the way I'm thinking, I want to go far away, if not several states away, out of the country (namely London). You don't just go to London. *sigh*

I feel like I need to be able to just go, and not be worried about work, family, etc. School, maybe. I just need to go, and be free and find some great thing to do with my life. I need to be a free soul.

In short, I feel much like a caged bird.

Saturday, January 03, 2004

There is not much on TV at 3:30 a.m. except for infomercials. I hate infomercials.

I really need to go to bed, too tired to blog.